Just random thoughts to keep me here

It has really been too long since I've written. It's strange how I go on vacation and I don't have any time to blog but when I'm working and stressed and crazy, I'm blogging everyday.

Anyway, I'm really not blogging because I have nothing to blog about...I'm on vacation!

Update on the relationship:
He was coming over atleast once a week and it has burned itself out. He's in it for the relationship, and I'm in it because I'm selfish and can't imagine not screwing somebody for any extended amount of time. Until now.

I actually want to be alone. I want to wake up alone. I want to make coffee for myself. Everyday.

Until somebody new comes around. That's not true either. I like the drama and everything but now that I've simmered down I realize I like the serenity too. I know I'm not going to be alone forever and I know if I want the next relationship to work out, I need Mychy time.

Things I've learned about myself during mychytime:

• I'm lazy...getting out of bed is hard sometimes
• I don't like to clean, workout, put away my shoes or my clean clothes
• Shopping works for me...when I'm bored or my apartment needs to be cleaned, I shop
• I don't like TV...it's so boring!
• Cantelope rocks!
• My music once again: liz wright, the killers, gorilaz, aimee mann
• Diet Dr. Pepper and Cola zero rocks!
• I really don't feed myself
• It's okay that I need people to help me do things